Put Out

Hey.

I've been thinking how I'll feel if ever I find that I lose my aim in school. Everyday I try to be near her for any possible way, but the chance to be close never comes.

Just as I wanted to start something with a tiny winy chat. But for some reason I felt tired and wanted to sleep which prompted me to cut this convo. btw, i sent the first sms cos i wanted to keep myself a little awake when it was so tired after the entire day of work n work. also, tiffanie was beside me on the bus but she was close to dozing... but i'm pretty sure that she saw the first two words. I was so eager to receive the msg that i couldn't think of anything else, until she replied at 2218. then the 'ever ever after' ringtone just jolted me instantly. yep, i have no idea why my first msg sounded so hyper n illogical that gave her the 'huh' reply. maybe it's how passion can spur one from a spirit of tiredness to a moment of excitedness. Either way it was rather formal, which lasted for quite a short while; the last sms was at eight minutes later!

anyway, gp practice had the theme 'hope'. just reminded me of the post i read on hers some time ago. i'm very sure that i would never understood this passage if i wasn't exposed to such simple explanation. i could just recall how enthusiastic i was when reading paragraphs with such small fonts!

yk's heartbroken, prolly this has made me feel weak too, for i have no idea if she's attached. by then, i'll be heartbroken. ai... no idea what to do.

-still attempting to get to her...